It's been awhile, so thought I should post something. Things are going okay with Scott. He's been so focused on getting his business going that he hasn't had time to fight with me, I guess. I've been a "good girl" lately and opting not to do the things that typically piss him off. For example, I haven't been trying to meet up with ex-boyfriends or sending other guys sexually charged text messages.

I feel kind of non-sexual for the most part lately. There was one day a few days ago when I really wanted to do it. I put on a sexy outfit and really went all out. He really enjoyed it and I'm sure he wishes it could be that way all the time. I think it happens maybe a couple times per month. The rest of the time, I'm having sex more for his sake than mine.

That's been our issue more than anything else lately. He wants sex when I don't. He often gets excited laying in bed with me. When I'm in bed, it's usually because I'm asleep or I'm going to sleep. The minute he starts grinding and groping me, my temper flares. He usually gets smacked, yelled at, or I leave the room to sleep.

Tonight, Scott went out with Alex. I was in Columbus all day. When I got home, he went in the office to work while I took over kid duty. I had some wine and watched "Jurassic Park" with the kids. Then, we both laid down with the kids.

Adi has been asking to have Skylar (Julie's daughter) at her birthday party. I guess it was the wine, but I contacted Julie about it. She said she would want to discuss it over a beer sometime and prefers to leave the kids out of it for now. She doesn't get it that I don't really want to be friends with her. I just want my daughter to have her friend back. I guess it's not going to work.

Scott found out we were texting and he asked if he could be friends with her again. I told him "no." Then he asked if he could hang out with her with me around. I got so frustrated that I told him,"I don't want to talk about it anymore" and left the room. He actually followed me and apologized. He said he was proud of me for asking Julie about letting Sky come to the party.

Tomorrow, we have Retrouvaille again. We didn't go last week because he had to be at an installation. I was really mad we had to miss it, but apparently that was the only day it could be done. We missed the session on conflict management, which we really needed. He said we could cover the material ourselves, but of course, we haven't. We haven't even been doing our dialogue sessions. He doesn't really want to and it makes me not want to. There are only two more Retrouvaille sessions left. I'm kind of sad about it.

Things between us are definitely much better. We still have fights, but I'm not thinking of leaving. The rules have changed now though. There are no outside sexual escapades, unless we are both participating. I'm not so trusting anymore.