Doing okay

Things have settled down pretty well around here.  Scott and I are getting along for the most part.  One thing that has helped me is to stay focused on things I enjoy such as yoga and dancing.  Also, I am attempting not to let my emotions get the best of me when he says something I don't like.  For example, he doesn't want to dialogue with me right now.  In the past, I might have made this a big deal.  I can get all upset and think it's because he doesn't give a crap about me or our marriage.  Instead, I am trying to see it as he just doesn't feel like it right at the moment.  I'm still hoping he'll change his mind though.  I already wrote my dialogue answer.  The question was "what have I done today to make things easier for you? How do I feel about that?"

I realized that we really haven't spent much time together today.  When I got up, he was gone to work out.  When he got back, he went straight to take a nap.   I left while he was sleeping to go see my client and pick up the milk at the farm.  Almost as soon as I got back from that, he left to take Karenna to gymnastics.  We did take the kids on a short bike ride when he got back.  However, we mostly focused on the kids.  Right after that, I went to yoga.  Then as soon as I got back, he left to go pick Karenna up from gymnastics.  He's going out tonight, and I think I'm going to sit this one out.

I was really hoping we could do our dialogue question so we could at least connect for a little while.  When I asked him, he told me he doesn't feel like doing it right now.  I'm not sure it's gonna happen at all before he leaves.  My answer was that I cleaned the house, watched the kids, and took out the garbage.  My feeling was neutral since I do that stuff all the time anyway.  It wasn't specifically for him.